I just celebrated my one year anniversary of being a certified crisis responder. Volunteering with IMAlive has changed my life in ways I never thought possible. In order to fully understand how I came to this place I’d have to start a while back. I started watching Supernatural over Christmas break from college. When I like something I can never just enjoy it. I become consumed by it, some may call that obsession. I watched episodes at alarming rates and followed all of the actors on social media.
After a break I started a new semester at the same college I’d been attending for over a year. I was working full time as a nanny and taking all online classes. My husband either was working evenings or studying. I spent most of my time alone. Even weekends my husband worked long shifts. I knew something was wrong but I didn’t know what. My wake-up call was when I was on spring break in Florida. I couldn’t enjoy anything. When I came back home my mom went with me to the doctor. Prior to this appointment I had frequented the doctor due to issues with birth control. I thought this was just a side effect. The mood, the weight gain, it all just had to be side effects. Then the doctor gave me a depression test and revealed to me that I had mild depression. I was embarrassed and frustrated. Why? I had family and friends who loved me, a great job, and opportunities that many other people didn’t. But I still had a problem. That same month I saw a post by Misha Collins advertising IMAlive and that they were in need of volunteers. I signed up without a second thought. I was fortunate enough to be sponsored by random acts and began my training in March. IMAlive not only helped me learn about how to talk with others, but also out taught me so much about myself. I have learned so much about myself during every chat and seen what I’m capable of when I put my heart into something. In this organization I have found a community of like minded individuals who support each other not only as volunteers but also as people. Without this journey I wouldn’t be who I ask now and I am beyond thankful for this experience.