and the only feelings I were left with were: so all of this is my fault and you are now asking me to feel bad for the guy?
Well, the ‘S’ word is suicide, and it’s a word that can make a lot of people very uncomfortable.
Mental illness is not something that signals a weakness, not something that defines one, and not something one is.
The words that I remember her saying every time again were: “you never really know”.
And then I got the text that altered my day completely and had me crying on the bathroom floor.
Nothing has taught me to be in the moment and steady myself like this work has.
When someone has been in the darkness, found almost a sense of calm in the chaos and isolation, it can be extremely hard to figure out how to break that cycle and rejoin “the world of the living”.
I’m constantly surprised at the amount of people I know that live with a mental illness of some kind.
The next morning I got the call. But it was not the call I expected.
You still looked at me with those trusting eyes: “I know how you feel because I feel it too”